As I have more available free time at present, I tend to use the time to ponder/ reflect on  my journey of discernment having entered the formation house.

 

The time spent at formation I can say for this moment to me is an interesting time not only in terms of the studies or the exposure we gain but more importantly the human characteristics/ interaction which I believe is at the very core of the formation process. Seminarians are not only formed to be humble and obedient but more importantly if possible to learn and be well aware of the individual's own weaknesses, to look at one-self in the mirror and try to learn not only of others but also of one-self. This exercise is rather very difficult as it requires the person to detach himself from himself and to analyse and make a prudent decision as to the next course of action and surrender himself to be formed accordingly against the grain of society or what we have been exposed and taught ever since we are young.

 

The very act of detaching our-self from our self is difficult and equally difficult would be to accept and learn from it. How are we suppose to consciously learn from our own self as this gets very much into the realm of philosophy in that we are able to look beyond our-self, de-constructing the event and learning, and applying it to daily life. Sounds simple and easy but humans are emotional being some more than others and this element is where it takes us to the level of difficulty.

It will require time but most importantly awareness to look at the situation/ environment particularly at one-self and the detachment from it. Only by doing so will we be able to have a certain degree of 'freedom' and the ability to learn from the situation which has been presented to us.