I suddenly had this thought gushing through my mind when I was alone having my afternoon coffee at the dinning hall not too long ago. The thought which went through my mind was wondering if there is LOVE in the formation house especially among the brother seminarians. Initial thoughts were very much inclined towards the affirmative or positive but as I sat there pondering away with my coffee getting cold, I realized that perhaps there is little love but not an absence of love though.
I attributed this thought to the various incidences within the formation house since semester one and the feeling of in-sincerity and reservations among us at the present moment. Love has made or is making a presence but it does not thrive as it should be due to one reason or another. We tend to be full of ego, pride, arrogance and being so competitive not to mention a few individual of have been judgemental even to the extend of judging who is fit or have the characteristics of being a priest or otherwise. These negative elements unfortunately is very much alive and surrounding all of us here and perhaps it is due to our lack of a prayer life or not wanting our-selves to 'die' for Christ instead living our old life.
God's love I believe is every where and within us - as He lives in us but it is up to us whether we wish for His love to grow within us and in our surroundings or we prefer to push that love aside and be the person who decides how much love and where does this love go to in that we are the ultimate decision maker rather than letting God's love flow freely around. Are we also willing to nurture this love or just let it wither and die as is the case it seems in this place. Maybe in time to come God in His own way, will open each and everyone's heart to His love to enable love to be ever present within us and amongst us. In the mean time I just have to learn to open my heart and be patient enough to let God's grace to work within the community.
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